T-minus 2 exams to go

Ladies and Gentlemen I am literally a week away from totally finishing exams/uni for the year. Huzzah! Another good thing is that I've also quite miraculously got the wi-fi at uni to work (nicknamed Uni-fi SEE WHAT THEY DID THERE). I mean, I'm quite glad that it's working because it means that I can now blog from anywhere on campus and not just from at home but here's the thing, I have been trying to make it work ALL SEMESTER and it just HAS NOT worked but suddenly one day when I happen to be studying in the library it asks me for my password so I obligingly type it in and BAM! internet connection. Awesome yet confusing.

Studying in the library is pretty good with an internet connection, especially when you're sitting next to a window and can see the baby ducks down on the lawn outside the library. But the sad fact is that I have been studying Philosophy of all things since about 9-ish this morning and it is now almost 1. I am so sick of philosophy. Luckily I have been able to keep myself sane by procrastinating by going on facebook and playing tetris and so on.

Despite this healthy dose of procrastination I have also been able to get quite a lot of philosophy work done, a total of 6 pages and 2,333 words to be exact. I might even do some more after I've finished this blog post.

I can't wait until exams have finished so I can go about organising my summer. I have so much organising to do. Sigh. It should be worth it though. =D

Work work work

It's study week and I am so tired of studying. I am also actually just really really tired. Although at least I am (sort of) studying at an acceptable pace but I still have a looonng way to go. I don't finish until the 19th so it's going to be a long weeks. I also have so much other stuff to do.

I was officially accepted into the Winter Programme at Stuttgart University so now I have to organise all that which involves a lot business with banks and bookings and fees and buying (lots) of things I need to survive in the European winter for 6 weeks and etc. etc. It's all pretty exciting but it does feel like I just have SO MUCH work to do with exams coming up as well and as soon as I finish I have to prepare to go study again. I know, my life is tough. It'll be a lot better once I've finished up with exams so I can mix in a bit of social life with my preparations.

Studying at home by yourself certainly makes you go a little stir crazy. I'm often worried that if I stay at home for a long period of days I'll become slightly agoraphobic or something similar.

It should be a fun summer (winter?) but I will miss being in the Australian sun.

I Love Lists

That's right everyone I will once again be summing up the events in my recent life by making a list!

THINGS  I HAVE DONE

• Sent off the application to spend the summer in Stuttgart, Germany studying German. Promptly received more forms to fill out
• Bought running shoes to wear for indoor soccer
• Went to soccer training (!) 
• Caught up on linguistics lectures and realised that even though the content gets a lot harder next year I should probably continue it and possibly major in it
• Drank some really nice cocktails

THINGS I STILL NEED TO DO (this week)

• Finish Philosophy essay (due tomorrow!)
• Study for German Aural exam (also tomorrow!)
• Vacuum the floors
• Go to the beach
• Do final linguistic assignment 
• Fill out aforementioned exchange forms

I think that all there is to list for today. Uni finishes up in 2 weeks before study break and exams. Ergh too much work to do, so little time. I feel my GPA is going to suffer this semester from lack of prior study, but oh well I still have another 4 semesters to make up for it.

Margo Roth Spielgelman

I would imagine that their are very few people that would actually enjoy being lonely. I mean, I know there are many people who enjoy being alone from time to time but being alone is not the same as being lonely. Being alone means to be by yourself, that is without others around, at any particular period of time. Being lonely on the other hand doesn't necessarily mean there aren't others around, it means that you don't feel like you have anyone who you really can connect with or talk to or be friends with. If you are lonely, you don't feel like you're a part of anything even though you might be in writing.  For example, my friend was recently telling me how lonely he was feeling because his family had recently moved overseas but he had stayed behind by himself. He said he had plenty of friends and obviously went to work and uni and saw people there but he still missed the closeness and belonging of his family.

Loneliness is possibly the worst part of the human condition it is probably (in my opinion) the number one precursor to, and element of depression. If people feel that they are lonely when they are depressed then it doesn't matter how many people try and tell them otherwise, they will still be convinced of their loneliness.

I also think that a lot of the time people feel lonely when they ought not to. Or at least not take their loneliness so seriously and realise it will probably pass all things considered. It seems to me, that sometimes, people feel the need to quell their loneliness with extreme measures, it is like they are looking for some perfect solution, the perfect best friend, the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend, the perfect mother/father (figure), and so on. Generally, however such perfect people don't exist and whilst someone is searching for someone to create a perfect solution to their all encompassing problem, they tend to overlook the other obvious and more accessible solutions. Like, if you do have people around you why don't you just try to enjoy their company instead of worrying that you don't have a close group of friends or a boyfriend or a girlfriend? You'll become more engaging and seem nicer which might make you feel less lonely because, let's face it, most people are exactly in the same situation as you are. Everyone wants to be liked, have friends and know people who they can trust.

Normally, I'm pretty cynical about most things, especially people, but I've learnt there's no point in getting all upset and indignant when people disappoint you because they probably will at some point, just like you will probably disappoint them sometimes. The point is to stop trying to get caught up in people's mistakes and worrying what they think of you, don't categorise your friends or yourself. Someone is always going to try and tell you what you are and they might be right on some things. But who cares?  What good comes from being able to define yourself? You will never stop being yourself doesn't matter who you 'try' to be.

So be grateful if you have people who like to see you whether they be the people at school, work, at home and if you don't think you have these people take another look or failing that go talk to the weird old lady on the bus. You'll feel less lonely. Trust me.

Exam time again.

Well, almost. Exams are in a few weeks and it feels like they are looming all too quickly, I guess it's that time of year where everything starts to get more and more hectic as we get closer to the holiday season. I have so much uni work to do I'm not sure how it's going to turn out although I'm sure it's probably going to turn out ok, I mean 2nd semester of first year isn't exactly a make or break kind of deal.

But, it also means that I have officially (almost) knocked off almost a whole year of my degree! Only two more to go. Not that I'm counting down the days or anything I really hope that the next two years are just as good as this one. I think that this year has probably been the best year for me since probably the first year of high school, if not even before then.

I have to do an essay that's due on monday, it's for Politics. I really hope that I have a good enough answer to this question. Who knew international politics could be so complicated? =P I really hope that I get a good mark for this essay, my average from last semester was pretty healthy so I would like to keep it that way.

Unfortunately, I can't say the same for my Philosophy essay which was waaay down on my usual average (although they said my writing was very good, win!). Lame. Only because I'll have to actually study hard for the exam/ the next essay if I don't wish to jeopardise my very nice looking GPA. Shoot me if I ever consider taking another Philosophy unit ever again, I very much dislike Philosophy even though I do like my tutor and going to tutorials is interesting. I still find it very hard to understand how anyone could do a PhD in it.

I guess I'd better get back to work.

It's another saturday morning

Hallo, weary travellers! I hope you are all enjoying which ever transitional season you happen to find yourself in. I find myself to be enjoying the Spring weather at the moment, except for one incident last thursday where I was psyched to go the beach only to wake up to rain. Sad pandas. I also woke up way too early this morning thinking it was later because it was nice and bright outside,  I had forgotten that the days get longer in Spring! *headdesk*

I guess there's not to much to report except that the week almost gone was our mid-semester break and it's almost over and I'm seriously wishing that I got a lot more work done. I did get work done but still, I always want to get more done.

I went to a party last night which turned out to be really enjoyable, I thought I was going to be really rushed and tired because I had work just before but luckily I finished early and it wasn't a busy shift so I wasn't too tired.

I think I had a better plan for this blog but I'm pretty sure I forgot what it was. Oops.

Short sentences with pudding.

My current mood is such that only a chocolate pudding with cream may fix. Or perhaps some answers.
It's "mid"-semester break next week. We had a fire drill at uni on Tuesday. Our exam timetables are out. This semester has gone by even quicker than the last.

I'm going to get some chocolate pudding and cream now.